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Bluffing is gambling?

In coping strategies on April 24, 2016 at 8:32 pm

by Chelle Wyatt

Bluffing – “To engage in a false display of confidence or aggression in order to deceive or intimidate someone.” Google bluffing and watch gambling come up. Are you gambling with communication?

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Bluffing is the first coping strategy we pick up as hard of hearing. I don’t think we are aggressive in nature and probably most are the complete opposite being more in the passive range. We bluff to pass as normal (whatever that is). We bluff to make others think we are keeping up with conversation when we aren’t. The consensus seems to be three repeats and if we don’t understand it, we resort to bluffing. Why? Because we are embarrassed. By three times we should have heard it. What’s wrong with our hearing aids? We paid good money for them and we still can’t understand what people say? We also dread the question, “Are your ears on?”

Instead of asking for another repeat at number three (or even better, a rephrase) we judge the other person’s tone, body language and facial features for clues, then come up with a one or two word answer to fit the question. I could say the word “wow” in several ways to fit what I saw and I got by with it until my ex-husband started outing me. He knew my whole routine and would laugh. He’d tell the other person, “She didn’t understand a word you said.”

How dare he?! If I wanted to bluff, it was my right, only he kept outting me, giving me no other choice. Part of me hated him for it but another part was grateful. Every time the other person, be it friend or salesman, would apologize, back up and look at me to repeat. It worked so I didn’t complain too much. After awhile I learned to beat him to the punch instead, “I’m hard of hearing and couldn’t understand what you said.” At least I did when it really mattered to me.

The rest of the time I went right along bluffing sometimes at work and sometimes while running errands. Not everyone needed to know I was hard of hearing. Being a hairdresser, half my clients wanted to talk at me and required little response… usually. Sometimes I read the person wrong and came up with the wrong “wow.” Seeing their surprised look I back peddled, finally admitting I was hard of hearing and could they repeat that since I misunderstood. I might even show them my hearing aid to prove it.

It took joining the SWC in the late 90’s to get over bluffing most of the time. All these years later, however, I still bluff at places like the bank because most of the time they are asking about the weather or wanting to know how I want my cash back. I also do it at the grocery store where the typical questions are:

  • Did you find everything okay?
  • Paper or plastic?
  • Stamps or ice?

Later I learned this as the coping strategy “prediction” so it’s not really bluffing. Or is it?

Out of curiosity, I asked my SWC friends how they broke their bluffing habit. Here’s some of their responses:

  • I broke it after joining SWC, said another person.
  • “Bluff? I found it easier to be antisocial until I embraced my hearing loss.”
  • “I developed new ways to communicate after joining SWC. I learned from others experiences.”
  • Someone else said “I’m deeply entrenched in the habit. I don’t want to disrupt the flow of conversation.
  • Another friend said, “I entertain people with what I thought I heard. I’m okay with faking in a crowd as long as I don’t have to give my opinion. If I want to know I ask later. I do not bluff in a one on one conversation.”
  • “I’m tired of telling people I’m hard of hearing.”
  • One friend said, “I can always ask later if I want to know what was said.”
  • “I bluff when I’m too tired and can’t cope anymore. It’s too much work to hear.”
  • “I hate hearing the words, Never mind.”

There are a lot of reasons why and when we bluff. Many of us stop bluffing as much after joining a support group. With support comes more ideas and courage to tell it like it is. Hearing aids are imperfect and while they help it doesn’t compare to normal hearing. We learn to tell people what hurts and hope they make positive changes.

My husband called me out for bluffing a few years ago. He came in while I was typing something at my computer. He said, “yadda yadda yadd.” I didn’t look up and replied “Uh huh.” He stood on the other side of my desk pointing a finger at me. “You just bluffed. That’s the same to me as never mind is to you!” I stopped typing and stared at him. (Why did I hear that and not what he said?) His answer blew me away. I hit the roof anytime someone tells me “never mind” (he’s experienced it) and here he felt the same way over bluffing. Is that really the way the hearing people close to us view bluffing? To be fair, he should have got my attention first before talking…but I did bluff.

While it is a coping strategy, it isn’t the best one and we miss many things and we may agree to the wrong thing with the deaf nod.. But sometimes we are tired. When I’m tired I fall back on bluffing. Auditory fatigue is real.

Prediction is another strategy and can be confused with bluffing. At the grocery store the clerk might ask that odd question and then I back peddle. Other times I nod in encouragement because I’m waiting to see if I understand the rest of the conversation before stopping them to ask for a repeat. My brain might fill in the missing pieces and understand the second half. I wait because about the time I ask them to repeat, my brain already filled in the missing slots and I understand so I learned to have patience.

I’m not going to say stop bluffing because I haven’t fully stopped myself. I have cut way, way back compared to those early days. I used to be embarrassed but I’m not anymore. I have a different way of communicating, why should I be ashamed?

Many, many people withdraw because of hearing loss. There are links to dementia for that sort of withdrawal from society. I had a grandma who helped build a senior center in a small town, she knew many people and was social until she got diabetes. She changed her whole life because of that diagnosis and the downhill turn was alarming. I don’t think it’s just hearing loss that makes people withdraw from society, people have too many reasons why they can’t do it anymore. They can do it. You can do it because if I can, you can. It’s an obstacle from the normal (there’s that word again) not the end of the world. There are ways around those obstacles if you choose. The answers above suggest joining a support group helps a great deal. Join SWC, join a local hearing loss chapter. Get to know others, make new friends and find new goals. I find my life very enjoyable these days in spite of hearing loss and maybe even because of it.

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  1. I couldn’t agree more with the sentiments expressed in this article. Another reason, most hard of hearing do not accept and love themselves enough. Think of it. You 100% brain power capacity to do anything anyone can do except hear. That should be reason enough to clap and celebrate. Think of many individuals in worse physical condition than you yet live without grudging knowing your presence here on earth is to fulfill a purpose.

  2. True words! Treat others as how you want to be treated yourself might be appropriate here. I’m bluffing myself sometimes, but I’m doing it less and less, because it is not very respectful to the person your are communicating with. I hate the expressions “never mind” or “it’s not that important” as well, but indeed, isn’t bluffing actually the same? I wrote about this in my own Blog (in German though) reneeiseli.wordpress.com as well.

    • I would love to be able to read your post. I think there’s way to get translations?

      • I’m still looking for someone to translate. Because I can’t pay money, it has to be someone who is willing to do this voluntarily. If you might know such a person, I would love to know! The translater button might help a little, but I’m aware that it isn’t ideal :-(.

      • The translations works well enough I get the idea, that’s cool. Some of it is a little off but it’s like our hearing, lol.

  3. I read this with tears. I do bluff because when my husband is tired, had a long day, in a bad mood, he doesn’t do the things he knows I need him to do to be able to hear. Like get my attention, rephrase, look at me so I can read his lips…..I know this is so hard for him because what works one day, doesn’t the next due to other noises, how fresh my batteries and wax guards are etc….I try not to bluff but sometimes I just can’t handle his impatience, tone when he repeats, never minds….An ongoing, daily full time job for sure 🙂 Thank you for this post and knowing I’m not alone 🙂

    • You are not alone, thank you for sharing. We all do it to some degree. I still do it, when I’m tired it comes automatically. Do I bluff my husband still? Sometimes. I’m sure half the time he knows and let’s it go. Other times he asks me if I heard him. He’s a little impatient at times too. My husband is ADD so he forgets the rules of talking to me often. I let some of that go too and other times I react.

  4. If I hear the term “selective hearing” one more time tho……. Lol

  5. Very interesting point that your husband felt that bluffing was akin to never mind. I think it is important for those of us with the hearing loss to keep that in mind. Great post.

  6. Usually, If I do not get it within the first two attempts, I will simply pull my white board out with an erasable marker and admit I am not sure of your statements. Please write it down for me. I have difficulty reading your speech. Of course, I have always, since becoming deaf, let people know that I can not hear at all. We must remember, there is no one walking the earth today that we can say is perfect and can walk on water. Although, many of us do keep him in our hearts and minds, most of the time.

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